one more proof

suck if i can be honest

guys, what do you expect me for believe

there always guy who different with the others?

while i get too many proof that freaking me out

someday boy will get bored with the one who he realllllllyyyy like

they will find something different

and tell that they wanna have fun?

wanna find more defiance?

find struggle so it can be more interesting?

new? or whatever

i'm tired to wish my dream will come true

my happy end

or what else i can hope from you?

there's just one thing for sure

guys just wanna have fun while girls cry for them

*shwiiiits*

new lesson for my live

ride on my bike with music come to my ears

ride on my bike slowly but surely

ride on my bike leaving my phone

ride on my bike bring out all the emotions

ride on my bike to forget you trying to forgive you

keep on my mind

how far i can go

how long i can spend

how much i can get

it's about you

about anything i can solve

about anyone i would love

about someone i've been loss

i know it's my fault

i know that i'm wrong

late to realise my feeling

someone told me this, we would taste the most painful part in love when we already lose it

i'm such a moron, i know you worth to be loving, you worth to be owned but i just can't open my heart for you, but now, when things already pass i losing you. persistent not to cross my own promise. i know it is a selfish thing. really. i just don't get it. in the same time you said that sweet word to me, you accept your ex girl feeling too.

you asked me, "are you alright?" and glare at me, look so worried,

how can i say "i'm not" and make you even more worry about my self? make you feel guilty from my own selfishness? my own mistake for not realise my feeling for you? of course i'm not able to. i wanna yell at you say you playing my feeling, cry out loud, punch you hard. but i JUST CAN'T do it.

hey fella, when you feel that you are the only one who get hurt, why don't you look back for a while and remember, your pleasant memories with him? not just painful memories?

i got one more valuable lesson,

from now on i will standing with my own feet, I've got too much help from you, then i became spoiled by your kindness.

but now, i can say it proudly to you, that

i already graduated from being your spoiled lil' sis, big bro

please taken care for your new girlf, i will always wish for your happiness, two of you

hope you read this cause i still not able to say it directly to you for now, but i'm promise i will, but not now cuz i'm afraid that you won't able forget me and love your new girlf with all your heart, wkwk just kidding ;PPP hehe, but i'm surely will do it for you, H :)

one step forward

hey buddy, do you mind if i share something emm....... maybe little boring with you? i just can't thinking another way to yell out my emotions

two days ago, days called by "bagi rapot" for all students in my school come near me andd how can't i dissapointed? why regret always come when everythings already end? i got really baaaaaad score. BAD. BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD.

all because i never study

all because i always lazy

all because i depend on my luck

IS ALL BECAUSE OF ME

really really DISSAPOINTED

but i realise that won't be settle the problem

past is alway be past cause already pass

what i can do now is try to be better and reform my bad score to excellent score

let times goes by and bravely welcome my future ;')

the craziest day i ever had

Uuuw bloggieee i have something to share with you. Maybe this is the first and last time i experience it wqwq

guess what...........

I’ve been confess with 2 guys in one day!
can’t you believe that?
someone like meeee?

such an unbelievable rare thing in my whole live. it feel so unreal. i still can hear my heart beating so fast if i remember that moment

so here we go, heem where i have to began with. oh i know,

this morning, i went to my old house. it been maybe a year since the last time i went there. then i met with my old friends and one of them, let we just called him A. such a nostalgic moments. there’s so many different from all of us. and one thing for sure, i really miss this moment A LOOOOT. i never say i just miss A okay? don’t ever you dare to thinks that.

we talked a lot. from discuss about our past until freaky and absurd things we’ve been pass. and when i realise, i already left with him. just two of us, my other friends one by one left me and him with different reasons. they said they want to buy some snack and whatsoever.

times goes by, silence came to us immediately after both of us know that we’ve been left alone. then, he confess me

uh i remember my feeling when that’s happen.
blusshing and melting.

so then i gave him the answer.
wanna know? I’ll tell you after the 2nd story okay?

after that, in the afternoon, me and my sis went to my sis’s childhood friend’s house. there i met the 2nd guy, let us just called him B. with no wait he confess me in front of everyone else!

really suck, my head feel dizzy like it already planned before

you know what? both of them damn get more handsome and gentle after just a year we didn’t see each other. FYI, B is have a twin and he’s better than his brother! And A, he grew pretty high now, my head is equal with his shoulder! it just funny that my first monkey love when i still a kid, confess me today.

who do you think i choose? A or B..................................








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wkwk sorry if i dissapointed you guys, i didn’t pick anyone of them. they both my childhood bestfriends, even tought that we didn’t as close as we used to be. but they ever being my besties and always be my besties. it just weird i have to be with one of them. i know them since the first time i can walk. and i know what good and bad things about them. it just weird and i thinks it would be waste if our relationship will change when i broke up with one of them.

But, thanks to you guys,
because of you i felt that i worth to be owned
because of you two I’ve got a lot of confident for myself

And i thinks, we already being like a couple or maybe, more close than a couple itself even we aren’t a real couple. I believe you both will get a better girl than me.

Love ya guys :D



That’s all bloggie, i’ve got to prepare for tomorrow exam, and must study hard for get the excellent score tonight (like i’d do it hehe :PPP). Wish me best luck fella xoxo

oh yeah, i'm sorry if my grammar and spelling got wrong, i'm just a beginner you see, hehe

heartached

1. Males online di laptop, sakit ati online di hp pegel
2. Ulangan ipa udah salah satuu aja
3. Banyak bgt ujian, dari mulai : TO, ulum, UAN, US, ulangan harian segala macem
4. Banyak bgt utang, dari tugas, pr, remed sampe utang beneran
5. Hp gue skrg absolutely, tandus gersang sepi gurun sahara
6. FD gue gak tau gmna kabarnya dipinjem pinah
7. Tadi dinyanyiin lagu yg dalem dalem sama si ilham, pinah, conge
8. Miss someone but he didn't
9. I can't stand with this feeling inside my heart
10. And the last, i really really wanted hear his sweet words, truly succes made me melt, at same time, my friends told me that he just too obsessed for find the substitude :'(

just wanna tell you this,

you like wind when you fly me into your sweet words

you like water cuz i can't read your mind

you like fire when you burn me in anger

but at same time you like shade when you by my side

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i doesn't matter if you just being a bestfriends with your ex,

as long as you didn't get in STUCK with 'em

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HOW can i trust you, if you treat another girl same as me?

I WON'T TRUST YOU ANYMORE

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i prefer not to believe him, than he hurt me AGAIN

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there's no "c" in L-O-V-E

but why "cry" always exist in thing called LOVE

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it time to realise that all things you sayed to me is just a BULLSHIT, jerk

confession

ya know taylor swift's song? "you belong with me"

i don't have enough confident to say that you belong with me

cuz i know she betteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer than me

"she wears high heels i wear sneakers"

can't you see the different?

i'm really out of confident

hopeless

i wan't no more scars in my heart

no more

why must she? she is tough rival

reallyyyyyyyyy though

am i better give up? and leave my feeling alone

watching your happines from the outsider area

isn't it better? i almost cry for this kind of things, again

my gosh

why must you? and why she?

i never can read boys mind (sigh)